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Floating in Experience

Thursday, August 13th, 2009

img_58631Floating in experience,
reaching through fingers upstream,
into dark cool recesses,
under roots and into bedstone crevices,
to the source,
the spring of my soul,
and with my toes, downstream,
to warm open waters of the future,
and feeling all those who have shared,
and will share, this vessel.

Earlier this summer I was repairing fence lines to get animals out on pasture. I had the boys helping me one day as we addressed one of our neighbor’s fields. As I walked around the perimeter, stretching and replacing wire, Timber took an old pair of fencing pliers and went about tapping in loose insulator nails. Bazel was more interested in cutting weeds and brush, so he took the old bayonet and used it like a machete to chop unwanted plants.

As I walked down across the field, soaking up the warm sun on my back, I listened to them each busily attending to their chores. I felt a flush of pride and a feeling of completion as I realized that I was engaged in work with my boys. They were truly contributing to my work, as if they were extensions of my own person. By having them working on portions of a project with me, it was as though I was actually performing the actions through their beings. We were all acting together as parts of a whole.

What gave me goose-bumps was when it dawned on me that they were using tools that had been around when I was their ages. I had picked those tools up from a work-bench, or a tool-box, and put my hand-prints on top of those of my father, and even those of his father.

I could feel myself drawing into my life, the experiences that were made possible for me by my father and my grandfather, and then exuding them outward into the lives of my boys. I could feel on a molecular level the connections, not only from the last, and the next, generation, but I could also feel the flowing of life, in and out, through those connections for undefined distances.

It made me recall an experience that I had in a stream twenty years ago. Prompted by something I had read from the writings of a naturalist, I had floated in the water, reaching upstream with my arms and fingers into the cool dark origins of Gilead Brook, and through my feet, downstream to the warm open waters of Long Island Sound.

On this day working in the field, I could feel this same phenomenon in my family. I could feel all of the lives that have contributed to the energetic experience that I call my own life, that period of time that I have been me. A sense of agelessness overcame me. And I could feel the immortality represented by the beings that are carrying that energy forward.

Bobsledding Logs

Thursday, April 30th, 2009

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It’s 4:30, quarter to five,
on a crisp mid-winter afternoon.
The sun has gone down behind the hill,
and you can see dusk forming in the shadows.

Dry powder snow covers the ground.
The temperature never got above fifteen degrees today,
but working in the sun, you warmed up easily.
Now a slight chill seeps into the dampness of sweat on your shoulders.

The team is ready,
hitched in front of a nice jag of fine straight logs.
Put your coat back on, and check for mislaid tools.
Climb up on the load, gather lines,
brace your feet, and calmly call on your animals.

As the load lurches forward,
puffs of steamy breath float from the horses’ nostrils.
You can feel the weight of the load through your legs,
as the bobsled travels over humps and through hollows.

Hooves thump and squeak,
as chips of ice fly from sharpened caulks.
From below the load comes the jingle of bridle chains,
and as the logs rasp over the frozen snow
they put forth a whine, like from a bow on a fiddle.

Feel that?… That’s the spirit in your soul dancing the bob-sledder’s jig.
” Now we’re logging”.

1998; For Walt Bryan; Farmer horse logger, family man

Cultivating Spirit on the Small Farm

Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009

When I was young it was a potato field,
They grew hay there before that.
A quarter acre glacial terrace,
Never quite washed away.

A decade ago I started working here,
It was growing saplings then.
I cut and burned brush,
And pulled roots and picked stone.

With the horses and steers I plowed,
Spread manure, harrowed, and cultivated.
With my wife I planned, and planted.
Struggled, fought, wondered, and hoped.

I have picked bugs, and pulled weeds,
Picked more stone, and hoed hills.
In cold rain, wet snow, drizzle and fog,
At dusk, or at dawn, and in hot summer sun.

I have worked with the soil, and with plants,
And I have found both feast and failure.

These thoughts come to me as I kneel in mud,
Freshly softened by the warmth of early spring.
I push my fingers into the cold slimy soil,
And grasp, twist, and pull each perfect parsnip.

I can’t wait to bring in this harvest,
The first crop of the year, a true success.
With both hands I hold them, heading for home,
Overwhelmed by the sweet fragrance of edible Earth.

Power pours through my arms, these are not mere roots,
I feel pain and stiffness dissolve, throughout.
Just then, the brook bellows from below.
And songbirds sing down from tree tops.

I listen to them, and I smile,
From deep inside, I feel it now.
It is not me who has made this field,
But this field that has made me.    C.B.R 3/28/9

The Void

Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009

Grok!!!
Too-Dlunk!!!
Raven calls, Welcome.

It is the place,
where to you it’s clear,
but to them it’s foggy,
where to you it’s a crack
the breadth of a hair,
but to them it is an abyss.
You see the knowledge,
and truths that reside there.
Others are afraid and retreat,
they may frustrate you,
but enter alone,
and travel freely,
among the mysteries.
When you return,
they will hear you.

Grok!!
Too-Dlunk!!
C.B.R. 1/97 for Milo.

Respect

Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009

Conceived, born, and raised on this land,
the farm of your dam.
Where you tested your feet,
and found your first teat.
Many years had passed,
since they’d seen the last,
Jersey bull hazing,
this hillside grazing.
From you period of toil,
the wind, water and soil,
of Gilead are within you.

We are not taking this life,
or energy from you,
it will always be yours.
We merely use it now,
to feed our bodies,
and to fuel or minds,
to manifest our dreams,
and to empower our values,
to perpetuate the care of this land,
and your kin who will follow.

Through you we touch this soil,
to the very heart and spirit of the Earth.
You help us to be part of the system,
allowing us to become products of our own work.

C.B.R. 4/93

The Old Logger

Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009

The other day I met a man,
it was a meeting I did not plan.
He appeared to me for just an instant,
from a place I felt was distant.

There have been other times,
that I am sure I’ve seen his signs,
the meanings of which I learned to read,
but on this day he came to lead.

I hadn’t asked but he lent his hand,
and showed the marks left on the land.
Up along the trail he led,
and found the spot to park the sled.

It was one of those days when things went right.
The work was hard, but the load seemed light.
The logs just rolled with the greatest ease,
as if they floated on the breeze.

The steers stood chained to their tree,
and chewed their cud and looked at me.
I’m not too sure just what they thought,
but to me his visit meant a lot.
C.B.R 10/94

Reid’s Mile Beach

Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009

I like to watch,
the gulls as they fly,
along the edge of an incoming wave.
They rise,
then dip to within a foot,
and glide,
the entire length of the beach.
Moving only slightly,
with occasional wing-beats,
each flight is so smooth,
as if it were the stroke of an artist’s hand,
as she traces each wave,
and stone,
or bubble of foam.
Then adds shades of tan,
green, white,  silver and blue.
What divine pleasure,
to watch the master at her craft.

C.B.R. 7/95

Luce Farm

Sunday, April 12th, 2009

bobsledding2I watch each horse bob their head,
as they draw this loaded sled,
through floating flakes and fading light,
into this space in time tonight.

These logs in mighty hemlock grew,
one hundred and fifty years they knew,
ever since this yard was made,
where house and barn cast their shade.

The sounds of hooves and harness chains,
echo deep into my veins,
and play like shadows cast in space,
of other lives who’ve passed this place.

At times like these I catch the sight,
of those who’ve crossed this beam of light,
and eddied in the current here,
the prints they made are very clear.

Their whispers speak of hard work done,
that doubters would never have begun,
but the challenge of this Earthly life,
is to work with love instead of strife.

For Mark & Leslie 3/01

Honey Moon Eclipse

Thursday, March 5th, 2009

Honey-Moon Eclipse

Sometimes in the night,
there is a light,
that shines just right,
but not too bright,
to see the sight,
of a million sprite,
taking flight,
not from fright,
nor for mite,
but in delight,
so that we might,
get the insight,
to enjoy it.
C.B.R.  11/97

Rob The Wonder Horse

Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009
Rob, my first work horse, winter of 1986-87, heading back to the woods with a single-horse bobsled.

Rob, my first work horse, winter of 1986-87, heading back to the woods with a single-horse bobsled.

Now go ahead, be on your way,
I’ll think about you every day.
Your eyes so bright, your ears so keen,
go find the field so lush and green,
and romp and roll, and buck and run,
have yourself a lot of fun.
I hope sometime to go that way,
and crest that hill to watch you play.

So many paths you helped me find,
both in the woods and in my mind.
We turned the soil and I learned to grow,
and bring to life the things I’d sow,
the best of which it really seems,
were buried deep within my dreams.
My time with you I’ll never trade,
you made a mark that will not fade.

Now go ahead, get on your way,
you will be with me everyday.
From ridge to ridge along the brook,
I see you everywhere I look.
Like scratches on a cavern wall,
our secrets are hidden in the scrawl,
of skid trails, furrows, and manure,
the tests of time, they will endure.

Whatever the job, you had your pace,
and I learned that this was not a race,
but when I asked you did your best,
your done with work, now take a rest.
It’s hard for me, I feel so strong,
the need to bring you on along,
to see things through to the end,
you truly were my greatest friend.

Go on now Robbie, get on your way,
I’ll meet up with you again someday. C.B.R. 2/94